Depression is a Demon. I fight this Demon everyday. Some days are easy, others are hard. Some days I win, others I lose. But still the fight goes on with every bit of energy and strength I can find.

UNTIL…….

One day the energy and strength is all gone. Then I have to let the Demon win. Then I have to retreat and let him out. In the hopes that I can rest and regain the energy and strength to fight him again. I’m really to tired to care.

I know you don’t understand, I don’t expect you to.

When Demon is in charge it is in a dark and lonely place I hide. A place of despair and emptiness. A place I need to go to recharge. With no fighting Demon maybe I can rest and grow into someone who can care.
I know I make you angry, I know you get cross but this is not about you. It’s the Demon I have to face.

I know you don’t understand, I don’t expect you to.

Please don’t get angry and shout at me. Demon hears your words and tells me you don’t really care.
Please don’t walk ahead and expect me to follow. Demon sees this and tells me you don’t really care.
Please don’t throw the Demon in my face. It makes me feel so sad.

I know you don’t understand, I don’t expect you to.

There will come a day I will be strong and I will fight the Demon even in fear. I don’t know what I will find. I don’t know what will be left of me or even if there will be a me, but I will try to recover from the Demon’s damage.
Please take care of me and show Demon you do care.
Please take my hand and walk with me to show Demon you do care.
With your patience and care I hope to find that tiny spark that gives me strength. I hope to nurture and grow that spark to a flame to fight the Demon down.
And should the time come when Demon wins it all, don’t mourn for me.
Celebrate as I will be at peace and free from the Demon of Depression.

I know you don’t understand, I don’t expect you to.

I hope you never have to experience the Demon of Depression.




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The Demon Of Depression

Where are you World?
Or do you even care?
 
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2019-05-14
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Its like being in a deep dark hole, everyone can c you, you can c them but you cannot get out. You alone. it's a dark place to be.
Janine Milliken
2019-05-14
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